April 06, 2007
Dreams - My other reality
It was a housewarming. I don't know whose. Ade, Juan, Viv and Wenn were there. Me, too. We were all waiting for food to be served. Kay was coming too. I knew she was invited. And I waited in anticipation, as well as at a loss to what to do or say when she comes.
We started talking about Viv's bf, who was a politician. A MP, to be specific. We were talking abou him because he was on TV. And we were watching TV while waiting. Viv brought a copy of Archie comic along. I have absolutely no idea why.
Next dream scene, Kay was among us. I either didn't want or didn't dare to look at her or talk to her. I didn't feel awkward; I guess, I just wasn't sure if she would like me to even talk to her. So, I started looking for things to distract myself with. Unfortunately, aside from the TV, there wasn't much worthy thing to be distracted with. Ade was talking to Viv and Wenn was talking to Kay. Juan sort of disappeared from this scene.
Then, I decided that I should face it - 'it' being being in the same social situation as her. And I decided it made no sense for me to hide away. So, I turned left to look at Kay. She was reading Viv's Archie comic (that's a strange purpose for Archie comic to feature quite a bit in my dream). I looked at her for what felt like a long time before she noticed and turned to return my gaze.
Instead of facing 'it', I turned away. I was just thinking that there were so many changes in her, I almost didn't quite recognise her. And I thought she looked so mature, so different from who she was when we knew each other. She was even wearing make-up! How unlikely!
Then, I turned left and looked at her again. And she was still looking at me. And we smiled at each other. I asked her something really inconsequential about the Archie comic (so inconsequential, I don't remember what). Then, she went back to the comic and I went back to try to make sense of whatever the TV was showing.
At this point, Wenn was sitting in front of me. An arm's length away. I reached out with my right arm and held her arm, pulled her back to sit beside me. She was wearing a sleeveless top, something casual, the kind she always wears at home. And I laid my head on her bare arm and started to cry.
I seemed to wake up from this dream. But of course, it's just a farce. I was just dreaming of having woken up. Wenn was still beside me. I woke up, face wet from tears. She asked if I had a bad dream. I told her I dreamt of Kay. Then, she urged me to write down my dream. We began searching frantically for some writing material before I forgot the details of my dream.
Then, I woke up again. For real. My dogs were barking down the whole block, drowning themselves in excitement about going for their morning strolls. Drowning the whole block with their barking too.
Funny thing in this dream is, I knew this person is Kay. But her physical form was Anna.
Woke up and missed her. Been awhile since I had a dream I could remember. Been awhile since I last dreamt of her.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 19:32